The truth is….I just didn’t like it! I love to work, I NEED to work. I want to be contributing financially to my family. I have 4 children under the age of 12. From 2005-2010 I was a baby making machine! Yup, we had 4 kids in 5 years and 3 kids in diapers at one point. I turned 30 the year I gave birth to my youngest child! My twenties were all about babies!
I struggled to get through my days. I was afraid to leave the house incase I couldn’t control this little bunch of monkeys I had created. I was becoming depressed and felt like I had lost myself in formula (I couldn’t breast feed for many reasons, don’t judge), changing diapers, constant cleaning up of food & toys, the never ending laundry & all the other errands I had to do around the house.
I allowed my fears of doing something wrong, drive my everyday decision making. So I just stayed home and did the same thing day in and day out. THAT WAS CRAZY! Once I decided to take control and get back out into the real world aka get a paying job, I found that it helped me feel so much happier. I felt like I got my independence back. I started to take care of ME. I know that I was good at being a stay-at-home mom, heck I’ll go as far to say I was GREAT! I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to do that. I am also grateful that I had the choice to make the change and push through my fear and begin doing something I longed for……working once again.
I started my own business and I did something I was truly passionate about. I did it my way and I didn’t let my fears hold me back. I felt empowered. I reconnected with friends and started getting out of the house and forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone. I wanted to set a good example for my children. I realized that if I don’t take care of myself, I am no good to anyone, including myself. I may not be be stay-at-home-mom material, but I’m a GREAT mom who loves her little monkeys. When mom is happy, then everything works out the way it’s supposed to…and EVERYONE is happy