I am not stay-at-home-mom material

The truth is….I just didn’t like it!  I love to work, I NEED to work.  I want to be contributing financially to my family.  I have 4 children under the age of 12.  From 2005-2010 I was a baby making machine!  Yup, we had 4 kids in 5 years and 3 kids in diapers at one point.  I turned 30 the year I gave birth to my youngest child!  My twenties were all about babies!

I struggled to get through my days.  I was afraid to leave the house incase I couldn’t control this little bunch of monkeys I had created.  I was becoming depressed and felt like I had lost myself in formula (I couldn’t breast feed for many reasons, don’t judge), changing diapers, constant cleaning up of food & toys, the never ending laundry & all the other errands I had to do around the house.

I allowed my fears of doing something wrong, drive my everyday decision making.  So I just stayed home and did the same thing day in and day out.  THAT WAS CRAZY!  Once I decided to take control and get back out into the real world aka get a paying job, I found that it helped me feel so much happier.  I felt like I got my independence back.  I started to take care of ME.  I know that I was good at being a stay-at-home mom, heck I’ll go as far to say I was GREAT!  I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to do that.  I am also grateful that I had the choice to make the change and push through my fear and begin doing something I longed for……working once again.

I started my own business and I did something I was truly passionate about.  I did it my way and I didn’t let my fears hold me back.  I felt empowered.  I reconnected with friends and started getting out of the house and forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone.  I wanted to set a good example for my children.  I realized that if I don’t take care of myself, I am no good to anyone, including myself.  I may not be be stay-at-home-mom material, but I’m a GREAT mom who loves her little monkeys.  When mom is happy, then everything works out the way it’s supposed to…and EVERYONE is happy

JLD <3

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